Peace, one and all…
Growth is not without pain and growth is not without sorrow. Indeed, it could not be any other way. A miner after gems must risk the dangers of the subterranean world if he is to reach his goal, after all.
Truth is not always easy, and it is rarely reached without effort. This is why writing about the work internal is so very challenging, and so very difficult. Firstly, truthful writing is honest writing. That is, it strives to lay bare the soul of its author, to expose that soul to the eyes of the world. Secondly, complete and unguarded honesty is a hard thing to master, and in any case, complete openness is not always adviseable.
I am strongly conscious of this in my own writing. For me, writing implies a decision, in that we are forced to define our thoughts, to decide how much or how little we are going to reveal. That is, we choose how vulnerable we wish to be. On a personal note, this is certainly what I strive to do. However, I am aware that there is much that I do not say, there is much that I leave hidden from view, and there are many things which my ego would find damaging to recall. Such is the path towards honesty, it seems!
But, it is important to note that it is a path, and not yet a destination! I am still becoming, I have yet to arrive (and God’s aid is to be sought in all things). And yet, I am bound by the duty to challenge my own preconceptions, and misunderstandings, to go beyond my comfort zone. Al hamdu lillah, I no longer feel the need to be right all the time (as I did when I was younger). Although I strive towards the lofty ideals of honesty, I am a human being and often fall flat on my face. For someone such as myself, who hopes to grow into humanity’s true estate, this means two things: honesty, with myself before others, and mercy – or a sense of forgiveness, or an understanding of my own limited nature (or just plain old laughter at my own ridiculousness)!
The most important thing I have learned is to never devalue the words of others. Just as I struggle towards wholeness, so do others. Just as my own words are partial descriptions, so too are others. Just as I struggle to really say what I mean at times, so do others. What is truly sacred, though, lies beyond words – beyond all ability to express. So, may God never find me judging another’s description. Why should I criticise another for being swept away by the beauty of the moon, when my heart is given to the dawn?
The aim, beyond all aims, of this blog is merely to communicate with others, to speak into their worlds and have them speak into mine.
And beyond all multiplicities lies the One, Unity in Infinity, Love Overwhelming!
And praise be to God that it should be so!